Dear Lila, A couple of weeks ago I dropped you off at Kindergarten and I cried as walked out the door. I didn't cry because I was worried you were going to need me, but because I knew that you wouldn't. I stood awkwardly next to you in the drop off line, waiting for the doors to open. It was like standing next to a grown woman waiting to be called into a business ...
Therapy Line Item #3734
Lila's hair was increasingly becoming a problem. After taking the necessary steps to wash and comb it through, it came out looking something like this: And this ^... this lie... this one day a week beachy wave hyperbole is what kept me hanging on for so long. Because the other six days out of the week it looked like this: She is a back sleeper, and also part ...
To Lillian on Her Fifth Birthday
Dear Lila, Tomorrow, you turn five. Sandwiched in between a sister sixteen months older and another sister fourteen months younger, I feel like I have spent the better part of those five years making sure I pay enough attention to you. "Oh, I forgot about Lila" I'll say to myself approximately ten billion times a day. And then I'll find you, usually tending to one of your ...
A Better Place
It was weird being alone in the car with my 4-year-old. She's my middle child and we never have one-on-one time. "I really need to make more time for just the two of us," I thought as we drove down the highway. But that would have to be a different day. Today we were going to our first appointment at the children's cancer center. A few weeks prior I had noticed excessive ...
To Lillian On Her Fourth Birthday
Dear Lila, A few weeks ago we were eating breakfast at a restaurant when a middle aged woman timidly approached our table. "You have beautiful girls," She said. "Thank you!" I postured, anticipating the motherly compliments that usually come with taking you and your sisters out in public. "I have two sisters," She continued. "And that one..." she paused, pointing at you. ...